The Cauldron

Second Energy Work Session

Intention: Understanding why my Maternal Grandma keeps showing up in these sessions.

Past Life:

I was a young man with some mental challenges (what people would consider slow or learning differences now) in the US, frontier time. My family was very protective of me. I had a horse that I was really connected to who was a little wild and unpredictable at times. When I was 17, I got bucked off of the horse and while I didn't die then, the fall shattered my left my arm and I was seriously injured. Moving forward, I always had issues with this arm.

My grandmother was so scared for me, she went out and took a shotgun to the horse and killed it. From this day forward, I carried a very deep anger and resentment towards my grandmother until the day I died. I was literally and figuratively shattered by the whole experience. Even though my grandmother was doing something for my best, my feelings never quite healed and she died not too long after she killed the horse.

When the healing was complete on this lifetime (see note at end under techniques and meaning), the healing energy turned into different sound waves/vibrations which were integrated into my body. Sound is a powerful way to experience healing.

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My higher self showed Kate 7 different scenarios that were scary to me and part of my unknown. There wasn't great detail, only glimpses, yet they were dark, scary and felt bad. I sat out in the dessert with a blanket around me and put the fears from these 7 locations into a giant cauldron. I heated it up and sat with it until they were liquified and the energy became transmuted.

Since these 7 places were part of me, when they were removed and put in the cauldron, I then had a cavern of vast void in my body. Kate spent a lot of time refilling me with a very high vibratory light energy, with a silvery light quality. As it was filling inside me it wasn’t creating more density it was shifting my vibratory state and giving me tools for expansiveness. Kate could almost see the fabric of it; the light strands came and were woven together, yet in an organic way that created flexible, beautiful spaces within me.

My higher self was very self assured and knew exactly what I needed to do. She stayed in the dessert and had Kate leave. She knew tending to this cauldron was her responsibility and what I needed to work through and tend to.

The cauldron was filled with a bubbling black liquid and then my maternal grandmother showed up and presented herself. She said, "I’m just going to slip right into the cauldron.". Her doing this had something to do with the mystery/energy of my grandmother. She told me that a lot of her work since she died has been a review and atonement of the choices she made and things she did. Somehow she had some accountability with some of my dark places.

My grandmother showed Kate strands of the elements of shame and guilt that have been carried through my maternal generations and said it went back 17 generations. Given this, there was a lot of healing work. She had a handle on our DNA strand stretching back and forward and was activating healing work to go back and forth through the generations.

As she was interacting with my grandmother, Kate kept seeing an image of me with big, beautiful moth wings unfurling. At one point while they were talking, I said, "I can’t even be here, I just need to go into a total chrysalis right now. I need to be totally cocooned to receive this information.".

As dawn was breaking in the dessert, I was still distilling down my dark, mysterious, fearful places. It felt like I was on a solo quest through the night, giving me time to reflect, take it all in and experience these difficulties and seemingly scary things I hadn't been wanting to look at before. By the time day broke, the contents of the cauldron were distilled down into a metallic golden nugget about the size of a craggy hockey puck.

I turned to Kate and said, "You are not going to believe how big this is going to get". I took it out and the energy was transmuted; it was no longer negative, yet now the golden lessons of what was distilled from the pain. I took a large hammer and pounded it out to a very, very thin, golden sheet of metal. I then rolled it up into a long thin tube and then bent it into a v-shape and said, "these are my antennae". As I unfurled my wings, I placed the antennae on my head and knew they were created to help me pick up on things and raise my vibration.

Felt: anger released

Practices:

1. When in stressful times, it's easy to get pinhole vision and hyper-focus on something. While I may be thinking that this will help me fix the problem, it is actually closing me off to other stuff - including the humor in the situation. Finding joyfulness and bringing humor into challenges is important and a release. This will help me keep the levity I need to stay afloat when things are tough.

2. Continue to meditate and go within. Imagine releasing anything down to the ground that is keeping me in a lower vibration. Remember there is a bigger picture than what my focused vision might be seeing. Of course I need to take care and do what I need to do to address whatever is coming at me, but try to remember to have a wider view and tap into my antenna. There is so much more available to me. Ask myself, what am I not tapping into here? What am I over focusing on here that I can shift?

3. Give myself a lot of time to experience nature as much as I can to get grounded. Touch a tree, go barefoot in my yard, drink a cup of tea outside. Fortify myself.

4. The guides told Kate for me to keep something handy to write down any insights or flashes, so keep a journal handy to write notes. If I get a sense about my grandmother or the energy work or anything else, just jot it down.

5. During meditation, visualize healing light stretching out through multiple generations backward and forward, my children, myself, my mother. The healing of the family line is going to happen above my mother’s head right now and that’s ok. I might try to strike up conversations with my grandmother in my mind/meditation. The more practice I have doing things like this, the easier it will be to tune into my own wisdom. It might feel like I’m making it up, but don’t worry about this. It will strengthen my intuitive knowing for myself.

Techniques and Meaning:

1. As we go through our lives we have an ability to see our lifetime after we cross. We get clearer where we did things where we could have made different choices or where we didn’t get it right. My grandmother is having to rethink a lot of things that she did. It was clear to Kate that the pain my grandmother caused was not her not knowing, she made some active choices that weren’t positive that she understands more now. She is now choosing to do this work.

2. In energy body work, when you start to get into past issues with parents, grandparents or kids, you can begin to heal things in this lifetime. You can also heal across timelines, providing healing for ancestors and your family lineage. You can also provide healing/protection for future generations to stop some of the patterns. You have the ability to release your family from chains in whatever way that looks like for you and often this has to do with forgiveness. This makes sense to me, as I've been really learning and reflecting on my grandmother and mother through these sessions, which has started opening me up to a more gentle, understanding and forgiving view of our relationships.]

3. Kate does healings on this lifetime by going to the point where the person in the past life dies and places that version of me next to the me in the room in present time. When the healing on the past life is complete, typically the older physical self dissolves and the gifts from the healing become reintegrated into the current body. The thought is that part of the soul had been hanging onto something that happened at a different time or place. Whether you believe in past lives or not, they can be seen as a story that helps you move forward and move on.