The Wolf Steps Away

Sixth Energy Healing Session

Intention: Unraveling from an intense period of our family life

Kate prepares herself for her energy body work session in the morning and for mine her guides were showing her the room becoming a sacred temple for our work today. She sees a lot of geometric patterns when she does this work and was seeing patterns and symbols coming down from above and welling up from below filling the space and making it holy.

Kate starts every session by scanning my body and she felt a lot more airiness and openness above my head and in my third chakra than she has before. There was some grief in my hearth and in my womb. She sensed that this was generational maternal grief and collective energy around the question of , ‘how do I show up and be a good mother?’. While mostly from my maternal side, the paternal side also held this collective grief.

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I found myself in an expansive canyon area, under a beautiful canvas of stars, weeping and grieving. An older woman was there and she put a shawl around me, caring for me so I could let the grief out. At the same time a group of mothers/women were washing my feet with rose petals. As they did this, they were also tapping words into a pillar of stone. This was a pillar of strength that was within me and they were chiseling the words into it to remind me that I can return to my strength.

A wolf joined the group representing the grit, strength, power, and focus that we had to have to navigate our mothering journeys. It was an acknowledgement and honoring of the protective and fierce side of my mothering energy.

As this group of mothers supported me, Mother Mary came through on a bed of roses, ushering in a beautiful, flowing mothering peace. Her focus was to restore this pillar of peace for me as I’m weathering different things in my life.

The woman who had put the shawl over me was leafing through the pages of a book. She’d stop and then bring someone new into the healing circle. What wound up happening is the circle got rounded out with myself at the ages my children are now. Then we realized that the woman with the shawl was an older version of myself and she now had a baby - me when I was young. My whole lifetime was represented in this circle and they were here to prepare me for a ritual - an earth burial.

All of the women began digging two holes in the earth. They lit 13 candles - divine feminine number - around the burial place. I stood over one hole and shed all the layers of grief, like a shedding of the uterus. This shedding held all of my ancestors’ grief and was a very sacred event. Once this was complete, the women took it away in a container. They then put me in the other hole and covered me with soil and allowed me to be buried.

There was still a lot of energy work happening at this point around the arc lines of my body, but I was held in this sacred earth container during the work. As I was going through this, the wolf came over to the filled hole and gave me a reverent bow. It then turned and walked away into the canyon under the moon and stars. I was done needing the wolf energy for my mothering journey. Instead a sweet, soft rabbit came and was a source of soothing comfort for me. Rabbits represent vulnerability, creation and abundance.

As I was buried, the healed womb energy of grief and generational trauma began funneling through either side of the hole I was buried in, like aqueducts into orange groves, fortifying peace and healing, and providing nourishment across both the mothering lines of my maternal and paternal sides.

While this was happening, the women kept repeating the phrase ‘as above, so below’ and then they released the offering that I had shed in the hole earlier to the cosmos. It went up and was given to Nuut who is the cosmic universal mother in Egyptian mythology. She processed the offering, transmuted it and birthed a star for me as I emerged from the earth bathed under the constellations and moon. They showed me the star and we knew it was my guiding light/my north star and would always bring me back into alignment.

Felt: Peaceful, grounded, cared for

Practices:

1. It is possible for us to heal intergenerational trauma in our lifetime. The way to do this is to remember those in the past. To honor the struggles they went through and to know they did the best they could with the tools they had at the time.

2. Kate suggested I meditate on this image. Picture my Christed, Buddha or higher version of myself sitting in a peaceful meditation. As I sat there, and as a mother, I was pulled into different things and a layer of me would get up to meet these needs or do these tasks. The key is that the sacred center was always there and I can always come back to it.

3. When everything feels in chaos around me, my work is to focus on letting go of micromanaging and refocusing on what is in my power right now. Ask myself, ‘how can I react to this?’, ‘What can I physically do that is in a position of power, not grasping at straws or trying to control?’, ‘what can I do in my heart?’. As mothers, it is powerful how working on ourselves and centering ourselves to our north star shifts the whole family dynamic. The work done today was to connect me with a deep, deep bedrock of peace that I can continually return to over and over. Keep coming back to this gift that we all have.

Techniques and Meaning:

1. When Kate told me about the star being birthed for me, she told me to not start thinking, ‘why should I be so special to get a star?’. This is a birthright and potential for everyone.

2. When you go through hard processes and experiences in your life and embrace them, the energy work you allow in is at another level. Your personal development and reflection in this world allows you to be more expansive in the spiritual world.

Themes That Continue:

• Maternal Line

• Burial

• Flowers/fruit coming out of my grief or pain